Will I ever be satisfied?

OK, I'll admit.
I have had a million jobs. More jobs than someone should have had at the age of 24. I stopped working right around my 24th birthday. I was 30 weeks pregnant with Logan, and I got laid off of the teacher's aid position at the public school district.
I could have applied for other positions, but I was pretty sure I was going to stay home anyway.
I had preterm labor issues, so we decided to make a clean break.
So, now it's been 5 years.
After highschool, I spent a year and a tri-mester in college thinking I was going to be an elementary school teacher. (I'm really glad I didn't go that route)
I met Dave who lived in a different state and decided that I was going to quit that route and get my cosmetology license.
I spent a little more than a year in cosmetology school. Which, btw, is a full time job. It's not like you have classes at a certain time and you go in here and there. When you are in cosmetology school, you are there M-F from 8:00am-5:00pm and Saturdays 8:00am-12:00pm.
I then held a part time job every day after work as a receptionist at a big salon.
When I graduated, I cut hair for a few years, but decided that I really DID want to be a teacher, but couldn't go back to college. I got an awesome aid position. I worked in a kindergarten class with a teacher who was about to retire. She let me be the teacher mainly.
I LOVED it.
That lead me to the layoff and new job as a full time mom.

Since I've been at home, I've done a few things here and there.
I did Avon for about 9 months or so. When I realized that I was making like $10 a catalog, but spending it on stuff that I didn't need, I decided that I would stop.
I also did home parties with Usborne books. That was fun, but my main goal was to get as many free books as I could. I got a TON of books...Awesome books...for the kids.
The thing is, when parties with my small circle of friends, and THEIR small circle of friends died down, I really didn't want to go market myself.
I was happy with the free books I got and decided to close that chapter.
Then came the idea for our business.
I love doing that! It has been getting lots of fun attention and we're selling shirts! We've got a huge baby expo that we're going to be involved in in September. We're going to be featured in a New Zealand newspaper and our shirts will be in an actual store in NYC.
It's going better than I would have thought.
AND it's great because I have been in charge of everything. It's a great accomplishment!

Dave and I were talking about what I wanted to do with my life someday. He jokes that I don't HAVE to go back to work until he retires at age 50. Then he wants me to work for at least 10 years so that we have insurance. Not a bad trade off!!
The thing is, I'm getting really eager to have something in which someone gives me a job and expects me to do it. I want responsibility. I want respect.**
This of course is not a new thing for me.
The problem is, is I don't know whether I would be happy working part time (I wouldn't work full time, at least right now) or if I would regret it and miss my kids too much!

Then comes the whole, what will I do with my life when the kids go to school.
I know some of you know that I'd like to get into the nursing field.
Heck, if I could turn back time, I would have studied harder when I was younger and went into the medical field. But, we all know you can't turn back time.

For those SAHM's, so you ever get in this slump? Especially those of you who actually have left a 'career'? I didn't really do that. I didn't go to school for 4-6 years after highschool. I didn't leave a field that I couldn't just pick up when I chose to.

I'm sure this too shall pass. And I'm sure I'm not alone.


**I know I have respect. I as well respect other SAHM's, OK?