when did this happen?

I went shopping this weekend by myself. It's always an odd feeling, being by myself. I'm not holding anyone's hand, I'm not pushing a cart or stroller. It feels strange being able to walk through racks of clothing without getting suck.
As I was looking over the rack of clothing, I noticed a group of women, they were probably 20. They were so cute and fresh and young looking.
One of them smiled at me as she passed by, and all of a sudden I realized that I am so different from them.
It's so funny to look back at my life.
I met Dave when I was 18!
I was dating Dave for almost 5 yrs before we got married and then we got pregnant in like 5 months. I was VERY pregnant on our one year anniversary.
I was only JUST 23 when I got married, 24 when I had Logan.
We didn't get to do all the newlywed things...weekends away, sleeping in together, sharing a bottle of wine or two and being all alone to enjoy it.
Not that I think what we did was bad in anyway, just different than what I expected.
So anyway, I look at these girls out having fun with each other and I think of myself.
I have a nice house.
I have a boat.
I have a minivan.
I have 2 children.
I've been married for 5 1/2 years.

How did that happen?
I feel like it has been so long since I was that girl, yet again, like it was just yesterday. That girl that thought about how she looked in the mirror on a regular basis. That girl who on a whim bought that cute shirt that wasn't on the clearance rack. The girl who had thoughts about when she wanted to get married, have children, get a degree.

I still feel like in a way I'm still that young girl! I mean, I am always told I LOOK young, and MANY times I feel like I'm not old enough to be driving my minivan! ha!
In fact, one day when I was out shopping, some really smooth guy yelled out of his car window, "Hey sweet lady, you shouldn't be driving your mom's minivan!!"
I bet he was stunned when I didn't turn around and give him my number, no? Idiot!

It makes me wonder, when those girls walked by, did they think I was old? the same as them?
I'm in that in between stage. The stage where you are in between young and middle. Sometimes I FEEL young, and sometimes I feel annoyed with the young.

It's so strange to think that I'll only be 41 when Logan takes off for college! 44 when Miles does!

So really, I guess I just had an eye opening experience while I was alone.
I have what everyone so desperately wants-at least most everyone!
I feel so lucky for that, but I also wonder what it would be like to be 28yrs old and to go out with the girls, not as a wife or mother, but just as a girl?

Honestly, I would never want anything different than I have now, but you always look at the other persons grass, don't you?

I learned something fun!
Here's a kiss from miles and an introduction from Logan!

Hopefully I did that right!